I am sick of it
Throughout this blog, I talk a lot about all the successes and failures throughout my mental health journey, often with a positive tone. This is for a good reason - I am a mostly positive person.
But I won’t sugarcoat it when I say I still have days where the old brain gets the best of me. Days where I get sick and tired of being happy or positive.
Today is one of those days, and it might be for you too.
One of those days when you go to work, talk with friends or loved ones, and complete all the personal tasks you need to but still feel utterly defeated. No one can tell, but it’s there, leaving you feeling drained and run down at the end of your day.
I get annoyed with anything or anyone that “inconveniences” me while I am in this mood. I just want the feelings to end so I can get back to being myself.
But sometimes those feelings don’t give a fuck, and will stick around until they are nice and ready to head out and at your expense.
On days like these, I do the only thing I can do - move forward. I let myself feel sad or irritable and let those feelings accompany me with any todos on my list for the day. I go work out and write this post, and let those feelings idle while I do it.
Because at the end of the day, sometimes I can’t do anything to stop the feelings, but I can control the actions I take with those feelings. And this is exactly what gives you the power back and might just help you recover faster. It may only take a couple days instead of a week. Hell, the feelings might go away overnight.
So, the moral of this story is that even when you are doing everything right in life, you will have days that weigh you down. But that doesn’t mean you give in or give up; it means you double down and keep going. Just like I am doing now.